I love reading blogs! I just read a blog I think it was called Katieblog but I'm not positive. Anyways I left her a comment about her blog and it inspired me to write this so everyone will know exactly why I enjoy reading and writing blogs.
Why do I write?
I blog because it keeps me sane! I have so much going on in my head constantly and if you think I'm kidding ask my mom. I talk to her a lot about all the stuff constantly running through my mind and I boggle her brain all the time! People have such a hard time keeping up with me when I talk, when I really get going that I find it so much easier to write it out. Whether anyone can understand what I'm talking about when I blog is a totally different issue! So because my mind works on overdrive I find blogging gives me a way to tell everyone what I'm thinking without having to boggle anyones brains!
Why do I read?
I read blogs because I love how honest they are! You can stand face to face with someone and think you know them, come to find out you really don't know as much as you think. Has anyone ever had that happen to them? Well in the blogs people are so honest talking about their lives, problems, opinions, experiences that you get to know the real them. Its amazing to me how you can read someone blog and feel like you know them better than anyone you've ever met face to face. I think that is so cool!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Sometimes....Lifes just not fair.....DEAL WITH IT!!
Why is it that no matter how hard you try to better things for yourself the harder things seem to get? You pay down that huge stack of bills and what shows up the next day? A ticket! Obviously if you had the money to pay the ticket you would but what happens when you don't it goes to $300.00. Okay now you really don't have the money to pay the ticket so you don't now what happens? That crap goes to $1,000.00. Well guess what thats BULLSHIT!!!!!
If people had money to pay their bills they would! Okay maybe not all of them but most of them. And I'm sure you can tell those ones that wouldn't based on past payment records. Things aren't great right now, you know, times are tough and whats happening? Companys are making it even harder for us! I'm not going to say all companies because thats not true. Some companies are very willing to work with you in tough times. But most of them, the bigger ones in particular are horrible when it comes to helping the people. Lets take credit card companies, okay so you used the money they give you knowing you would have to pay it back. Thats totally 1000% understood when you get one. Then major bummer you're out of work for awhile. What do credit card companies do? They tack on a $40.00 late fee adding to that amount you already have spent on your card which puts you over your limit which adds a $40.00 over limit fee. Okay great now not only do you have the money you spent but you have $80.00 in crap fees. Say your out of work 3 months. Well damn thats $280.00 but not only is it all that money in crap fees now your minimum payments in like $500.00. SERIOUSLY!!!! Don't you think if we had the money to pay we would? You have a customer who pays their bills on time every month for years and now he misses a few payments and bam you just screwed him good! Thats such crap!!!
I know, I know its not all their fault. They have special programs you can sign up for so when something like that happens you don't have to worry. Well we did have the on one of our credit cards and guess what, times get bad and nothing. They give you some lame ass excuse as to why they wont help you. Oh that insurance crap just covers this kind of hardship sorry your not included. Then they hound you for that $500.00 minimum payment. Really is that necessary? As if people aren't depressed enough getting those bills or that stack they have on their desk that just piles up and up. Or maybe your like my parents who have been going through such a hard time they don't even open the mail anymore.
Then theirs companies who hound you to make a payment and then when you call to do so they tell you that paying over the phone will be a $5.00 fee. Or in my families case they don't even tell you that! They want their money so bad that they run up their phone bills calling every 5 minutes but when you call to make a payment they find in necessary to charge you even more. You call to give them their money and its like their punishing you! Obviously they don't want it that damn bad!!
I just don't understand why everything always gets harder. People don't want to work with you they want to work against you, or so it seems to me! Everyone wants you to be nice but nice people always get taken advantage of. I just don't see the point! I think things seriously need to change. Maybe I should right the president!
I don't want to sound like a huge complainer because I really don't mean to be. I know there are people who try to help and companies that do everything they can to help.
It's kind of like this....I've tried to be a good person. I always got good grades, I had every intention of going to college, I don't nor did I ever party. Don't drink, don't smoke, don't do any kind of illegal drugs. I help my family with their bills and such. I stick up for my friends and my family. I'm a great employee, I do my job the best I can. I go to church, I donate money, I help people when I can. I have so many things I want to do to help people its amazing. The big thing I wish I could do is to create a community center, a place kids, teens, even young adults can go. That will keep them safe, and engaged so they aren't out doing things they shouldn' t be doing. I recycle hardcore, I collect aluminum cans, I even collect the recycling from my work. Obviously I have my flaws like every other human being on the planet but I'd have to say for a 20 year old person I'm not doing so bad. So why do I always feel like bad things are happening to me?
All that good and what happens to me? I find out that I have a severe case of narcolepsy with a slight case of cataplexy. This disorder has impacted my life so much it isn't even fair! I've had to put off school, I can't drive, I don't hangout with friends very much, I can't stay up late like kids my age do because it messes up my sleep cycle for like a week. What did I do? I didn't even see the narcolepsy as such a bad thing. I try to look at the positives. It lets me think and sleep like other people or incapable of doing. I had a really bad accident and lost my license but it was like a blessing in disguise because that night I could have been killed as well as the other young guy whose car I hit. I don't have money to go to school and I really want to go. Then I find out that these rich kids I know who spend all their time partying have rich daddies who are not only paying for their school but also for their apartment while they are in school. Can you say unfair? My family helps anyone who needs it, is always there for everyone, and what happens? I just found out that January 2nd, 2010 we will be loosing our house. AWESOME ISN'T IT?
Sometimes I just can't help but feel like God is punishing me for something. I know everything happens for a reason and what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. But you can only go through so much before you start thinking what did I do to deserve this?
I'm narcoleptic, I'm always broke, the little bit of money I do get goes towards helping my parents with bills, my dad's been out of work for over a year and he's always depressed so he wont get up and find work, when he does get up its to help his buddies or get drunk, he gets drunk and he is super mean to me and the rest of my family, my brother steals my money and takes my things without asking, I pay for gas and then I get in to take the car to work and its on check gage, I don't hang around with any of my friends, I've gotten to be so round its not even funny. I'm getting read to loose the place I've called home for the last 15 years, my mom is on probation and having a very hard time paying her monthly money so I always have to worry about whether she'll be going to jail or not. I lost my license, I totaled my car 2 months after I bought it, I'm paying back a $20,000 loan that I didn't even spend. My parents always tell me their depressed and don't want to talk about the situation were in which just puts more weight on my shoulders because I get to take on whatever problem they wont face. These things aren't things that 20 year old kids should have to deal with. I know your supposed to take care of your parents, I mean after all they took care of you for your 18 years. But what you have to understand is that my parents aren't like nursing home old. My parents are in their late forties early fifties, still fully capable of taking care of themselves. To top it all off I'm taking care of a brother and sister who are adults themselves!
How can anyone deal with so much and then be happy?
You have to know that I try my best to be. I'm always trying to think of ways to help or better my situation but really you can only do so much before you just give up! How can I help myself and the 4 other people I live with if nobody else is willing to help themselves or me?
ALRIGHT I THINK I'VE DONE ENOUGH COMPLAINING FOR RIGHT NOW!
If people had money to pay their bills they would! Okay maybe not all of them but most of them. And I'm sure you can tell those ones that wouldn't based on past payment records. Things aren't great right now, you know, times are tough and whats happening? Companys are making it even harder for us! I'm not going to say all companies because thats not true. Some companies are very willing to work with you in tough times. But most of them, the bigger ones in particular are horrible when it comes to helping the people. Lets take credit card companies, okay so you used the money they give you knowing you would have to pay it back. Thats totally 1000% understood when you get one. Then major bummer you're out of work for awhile. What do credit card companies do? They tack on a $40.00 late fee adding to that amount you already have spent on your card which puts you over your limit which adds a $40.00 over limit fee. Okay great now not only do you have the money you spent but you have $80.00 in crap fees. Say your out of work 3 months. Well damn thats $280.00 but not only is it all that money in crap fees now your minimum payments in like $500.00. SERIOUSLY!!!! Don't you think if we had the money to pay we would? You have a customer who pays their bills on time every month for years and now he misses a few payments and bam you just screwed him good! Thats such crap!!!
I know, I know its not all their fault. They have special programs you can sign up for so when something like that happens you don't have to worry. Well we did have the on one of our credit cards and guess what, times get bad and nothing. They give you some lame ass excuse as to why they wont help you. Oh that insurance crap just covers this kind of hardship sorry your not included. Then they hound you for that $500.00 minimum payment. Really is that necessary? As if people aren't depressed enough getting those bills or that stack they have on their desk that just piles up and up. Or maybe your like my parents who have been going through such a hard time they don't even open the mail anymore.
Then theirs companies who hound you to make a payment and then when you call to do so they tell you that paying over the phone will be a $5.00 fee. Or in my families case they don't even tell you that! They want their money so bad that they run up their phone bills calling every 5 minutes but when you call to make a payment they find in necessary to charge you even more. You call to give them their money and its like their punishing you! Obviously they don't want it that damn bad!!
I just don't understand why everything always gets harder. People don't want to work with you they want to work against you, or so it seems to me! Everyone wants you to be nice but nice people always get taken advantage of. I just don't see the point! I think things seriously need to change. Maybe I should right the president!
I don't want to sound like a huge complainer because I really don't mean to be. I know there are people who try to help and companies that do everything they can to help.
It's kind of like this....I've tried to be a good person. I always got good grades, I had every intention of going to college, I don't nor did I ever party. Don't drink, don't smoke, don't do any kind of illegal drugs. I help my family with their bills and such. I stick up for my friends and my family. I'm a great employee, I do my job the best I can. I go to church, I donate money, I help people when I can. I have so many things I want to do to help people its amazing. The big thing I wish I could do is to create a community center, a place kids, teens, even young adults can go. That will keep them safe, and engaged so they aren't out doing things they shouldn' t be doing. I recycle hardcore, I collect aluminum cans, I even collect the recycling from my work. Obviously I have my flaws like every other human being on the planet but I'd have to say for a 20 year old person I'm not doing so bad. So why do I always feel like bad things are happening to me?
All that good and what happens to me? I find out that I have a severe case of narcolepsy with a slight case of cataplexy. This disorder has impacted my life so much it isn't even fair! I've had to put off school, I can't drive, I don't hangout with friends very much, I can't stay up late like kids my age do because it messes up my sleep cycle for like a week. What did I do? I didn't even see the narcolepsy as such a bad thing. I try to look at the positives. It lets me think and sleep like other people or incapable of doing. I had a really bad accident and lost my license but it was like a blessing in disguise because that night I could have been killed as well as the other young guy whose car I hit. I don't have money to go to school and I really want to go. Then I find out that these rich kids I know who spend all their time partying have rich daddies who are not only paying for their school but also for their apartment while they are in school. Can you say unfair? My family helps anyone who needs it, is always there for everyone, and what happens? I just found out that January 2nd, 2010 we will be loosing our house. AWESOME ISN'T IT?
Sometimes I just can't help but feel like God is punishing me for something. I know everything happens for a reason and what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. But you can only go through so much before you start thinking what did I do to deserve this?
I'm narcoleptic, I'm always broke, the little bit of money I do get goes towards helping my parents with bills, my dad's been out of work for over a year and he's always depressed so he wont get up and find work, when he does get up its to help his buddies or get drunk, he gets drunk and he is super mean to me and the rest of my family, my brother steals my money and takes my things without asking, I pay for gas and then I get in to take the car to work and its on check gage, I don't hang around with any of my friends, I've gotten to be so round its not even funny. I'm getting read to loose the place I've called home for the last 15 years, my mom is on probation and having a very hard time paying her monthly money so I always have to worry about whether she'll be going to jail or not. I lost my license, I totaled my car 2 months after I bought it, I'm paying back a $20,000 loan that I didn't even spend. My parents always tell me their depressed and don't want to talk about the situation were in which just puts more weight on my shoulders because I get to take on whatever problem they wont face. These things aren't things that 20 year old kids should have to deal with. I know your supposed to take care of your parents, I mean after all they took care of you for your 18 years. But what you have to understand is that my parents aren't like nursing home old. My parents are in their late forties early fifties, still fully capable of taking care of themselves. To top it all off I'm taking care of a brother and sister who are adults themselves!
How can anyone deal with so much and then be happy?
You have to know that I try my best to be. I'm always trying to think of ways to help or better my situation but really you can only do so much before you just give up! How can I help myself and the 4 other people I live with if nobody else is willing to help themselves or me?
ALRIGHT I THINK I'VE DONE ENOUGH COMPLAINING FOR RIGHT NOW!
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