Who Says I Can't?

I've been hearing I'm crazy a lot lately. = ) I also get weird and strange sometimes too. Personally I think they're compliments!

I like to do the things that I like to do, when I want to do them, regardless of what people think. Now I suppose that can sound sort of snobby but I don't mean for it to. It's more like people give me that...what is wrong with her look a lot...I'm guessing it has to do with the things I do and the way I do them.

People take life to seriously! You should enjoy life and make the most out of everyday whether you're 16, 18, 21, 40 or 85. Who put an age restriction on fun?

When I was younger (writing that always makes me giggle because I am only 21) I wasn't one of those people who couldn't wait to grow up. I wanted to stay young forever. In fact at one point I decided that 18 was as old as I wanted to get. I loved high school, I thought it was a blast! I liked going to football games, dances, looking forward to weekends so I could sleep in.

Not only where there so many great things about being a kid but I also looked at all the adults I knew and it never seemed like they had any fun. My parents both worked full time by the time they got home it was dinner then watching TV until bed. Seemed like such a boring way to live! = ( Most of my friend's parents were the same way. I could never understand why they didn't make time for more fun. I swore I would never let my life be like that. It's like you're working just to live.

I mean what is the point? You get up, go to work, come home, eat dinner, watch TV, go to bed, then get up and do it all over again. Every day its the same thing and why? So you can pay you're mortgage so you have a place to eat, sleep and watch TV? It just doesn't balance out in my head. Maybe its just me?

Now that I am actually a grown up I can't understand for the life of me why everyone looks so forward to it. Bills, work, bills, work, bills, work, school, school bills....that's pretty much my life.
Because I decided a long time ago that I wasn't going to live life just to survive I make the most of everything I do! In doing that I have tons of fun!!!!!!! That's why people think I'm crazy.


I'm 21..........

• I'm addicted to playing Facebook games
• I read the A List Books, Gossip Girl and Twilight
• Taylor Lautner is one of the hottest guys alive!
• I hate the Jersey Shore
• I am a big believer in astrology.....its all about the zodiac = )
• I love High School Musical and I own all 3 DVDs
• Sometimes I wear my sunglassses inside....why? Just because I feel like it
• I like hanging out with my brother and sister
• Saving money is hard for me
• I have a DVD addiction
• I have pen pals in jail and all over the world
• I love piggy banks
• Dressing up for Halloween is a must.....and I don't mean in the sluttiest costume possible...in fact I'm thinking this year I'll be Mario and I'll have someone else be Luigi
• I enjoy playing video games....Donkey Kong, Super Mario......YEAH BUDDY!!!!!
• I like to color
• I enjoy playing with bubbles
• Playing on the swings, building sand castles, drawing with chalk....all sound good to me
• The Scooby's Hot Dog Guy that stands on North Ave makes me giggle....I love that guy!
• I wish on shooting stars and when the clock says 11:11
• I still enjoy the B96 summer bash
• I actually get in the pool when we decide to swim......I don't know how people can just lay there and bake...that is not fun to me.
• I'd rather pick flowers than plant them
• Football Sunday is NOT the highlight of my week
• Reading forward emails usually makes me smile and I enjoy it
• Fun quotes make me feel happy
• I enjoy just driving around singing along to the radio
• I think people who drive to slow should get tickets
• They should let me coach the Chicago Bulls....You guys have so much talent....you really should be better!
• I love getting mail!
• I say hi and wave to everybody
• Building snowmen is a must in the winter
• I go outside with my hair wet in the winter even though I know I shouldn't
• I still haven't become friends with the iron or the sewing machine

People think just because you're a grown up you have to act a certain way and you can't do certain things. I say......FORGET THAT!!!!!! If it sounds like fun to me I'm going to do it. I don't care if people think I'm to old. 

You wont be here forever so you might as well enjoy it while you are! Don't let what other people think hold you back!

Is it Just Me?

I think maybe I'm a strange person and I mean this in the best way possible. Of course I suppose it's totally possible that I think I'm just super unique when really the way I think isn't that much different from anyone after all. 

My brain works on overtime! Some people would think this is amazing while others find it to be a bummer....usually those on the bummer end are the ones who end up listening to me talk. = ) I think about things that I'd be willing to bet never cross other peoples minds. Like why we want moon rocks......personally I think a Mars rock would be a lot cooler. Why are we here if all we do is work to live? 

I know all my faults as well as all of my good traits. I can see the upside to every situation while being able to see the downside at the same time. I try to practice what I preach but that's a lot easier said than done. I like to do the things I like to do regardless of what other people think is appropriate but at the same time as much as I try not to care I still care what people think. I believe hardcore in astrology. I change my mind about what I want to do every single day but I never forget anything I've ever wanted to do. I want to make a difference and help people but I never know how to do that. 

I feel like I was meant to do something great but I just can't figure out what it is. Its extremely frustrating for me to have all these ideas all of the time and never know what to do with them. You see I'm a thinker, a planner. I am not a doer! I know that's something I need to change and I am working on it. But right now that's just not enough for me. Nothing ever seems to be enough for me. 

Helping one person is great but I want something bigger than that.....I want to help EVERYONE! I don't want people to suffer and be unhappy. Because I always want something bigger I never get started doing something smaller. Does that make any sense?

You would think being home all day I'd have tons of time to do something great. That is not the case for me. I'm so unbelievably bored with life right now! I tried starting school. I thought that would solve my problem because then I'm doing something with myself I'm not just completely wasting time. Did that work? No! I'm still bored out of my mind. I need to find something I can do during the day that makes me feel like I'm doing something productive with my time. 

Its kind of like......if you woke up tomorrow and found out you had just one day to live what would you be able to say about your life? This is the question I've been asking myself a lot lately. This is the question that is making me crazy! 

My answer...........NOTHING! I mean I graduated high school and don't get me wrong that is a great accomplishment but its nothing extraordinary. I love my family and my friends and that is also something I am very proud of. But really I haven't done anything with my life. I know, I know I'm only 21 years old.......how can I possibly say that when I have my whole life ahead of me? Its easy really......it takes one person one second to make a difference. Sounds strange doesn't it? 

Think of it this way....you're walking into work and you smile at the gentleman while your waiting for him to catch up so you can hold the door open for him. A genuine smile from a stranger can mean the world! Now you've made his day and he goes into work and gives a promotion to a deserving employee whose been struggling to make ends meet. Now he has made her day. On her way home she stops at a local pizza parlor to grab dinner for her husband and kids. While waiting for her pizza the young girl behind the counter makes small talk and seems nice enough. On her way out with her pizza she gives the girl a $5.00 tip. That tip was unexpected but certainly appreciated and it makes the young girls day. She takes it home and puts it in her savings jar thats about ready to be cashed in. With that money she's ready to apply to medical school. A lot of hard work and a few years later she graduates at the top of her class. We now have one of the best doctors because someone took the time to smile at a stranger! 

We all have it in us to be great, unfortunately only a small percentage of us ever really reach our full potential. You don't have to be a grown up, have a college degree, money, time, or anything really. All you have to have is the desire to make a difference!

I'm pretty sure I have that now all I need to do is find a way to tap into it!